Wandering Mind

have you ever lost someone whom you was not related to but their death hurt you as if you were blood relatives? I have friends who i have lost throughout the years and their death have weighed a toll on me. This one friend in particular lost his battle to cancer, and it is crazy how something always reminds me of him or my mind just wanders and i catch myself thinking of him. When i begin to think of him i remember how he used to act in high school, how happy he was to have his first child, how he was so playful and joyful, how on the day i broke my leg he was one of the people who carried me, how when he first got hospitalized he did not know exactly what was wrong with him, how he first found out he had leukemia, how he acted when i went to visit him, how he told me that day that he was going to die and i told him not to say that, how much i cried after leaving that hospital that night, how i was supposed to go see him days before he passed away, how i found out of his death, how i nearly broke down at school with another one of my friends over his death, how much people was at his funeral, how much i miss him, and how much i wished cancer did not exist.