It took me a while to actually learn to accept that feeling or that idea of "peace." I was starting to think that maybe I was just a horrible person or that I did not have it in me to forgive because I was heartless. Throughout my life, I have had people hurt me; some caused more hurt than others. I have had people who were supposed to be there for me and protect me hurt me to the point of no turning back. These people in particular have made it difficult for me to forgive them especially since they meant so much to me but still always found different ways to hurt me. I think that it took a lot of courage, growth, and strength for me to finally be at the point where I could just be like, "It is what it is." I am finally at peace because time and time again I held a grudge, or convinced myself that I forgave people who then went on and did something else that was hurtful. I am at the point where I can forgive and still continue to love from afar with out even having any desire to rekindle relationships. Forgiveness brought upon peace for me, the forgiver, without giving those who were forgiven leeway to re-enter my life.
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