no more excuses

Everything I been through with the guy I once looked at as the love of my life has caused me to see him as a totally different person, someone I did not expect him to be; and THAT is what broke my heart more so than anything else. How can the same person who tells you they love you so much and that you mean so much to them cause you so much pain and at times act like you mean nothing at all to them? My relationship with him was like a cycle, we kept going round and round. When it seemed like we were getting somewhere, something would happen or I would find out something not so pleasing and then that ultimately took us right back to square one.
The two of us had our share of great times, that I can't lie but it's hard for me to even look at from that angle when the thoughts of how he did me wrong constantly consumed my mind. I've made so many sacrifices for him...for us, and I just feel like all of that went unappreciated. It's so sad how he went from being my everything, the one I wanted to be with, the one I wanted to marry one day and have kids with to someone who was just apart of my life. It's crazy how all those changes in our relationship took place... It's crazy how LIFE happens. I used always try to convince myself that things would get better and that I should give him sometime to get it together since we both loved each other so much. Now, I have come to realize that sometimes love is just not enough. Sometimes there is absolutely nothing that can be done about a failing relationship, and we, as females need to stop trying to justify the behavior of the guy that we really like or love just because we like or love them. 
There is no justification or excuse for a guy who continuously does all the wrong things. There's no justification for a guy who continues to lie and cheat. There is no justification for a guy who promises to change time and time again, but never does. We, as females need to stop trying to find excuses like, "he makes me happy so that's what matters the most." No, that is just a misconception because we tend to be so blinded by love. Don't get me wrong, there's guys out there who do love their ladies, but that doesn't mean they are ready to settle down and be faithful to that one girl. Dig deep, and find it in you to let go of all those toxic relationships. It takes a lot of courage, strength, and a lot of time to finally work up the nerve to let go of an unhealthy relationship or a relationship that simply is not going anywhere but it is worth it. I am now at peace with myself, doors are opening up for me, I am accomplishing a lot of things, and I just feel like the sky is the limit. Sometimes you have to let go of certain things in order for you to be able to reach your full potential or in order to see what true happiness feels like.